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Decade
03:16
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We bought a car and we just headed for the coast
Cashed in our paychecks, left our houses with their ghosts
Driving the back roads until we could smell the sea
You twisted in your seat and said “I’m so happy”
And I spent the next decade trying to make that feeling last
We’re just like everyone who holds on to the past
We ran out of road and we ran onto the sand
And at the water’s edge you took hold of my hand
It felt to me as if I’d always known you here
Showed you the place I wrote my name under the pier
And as we looked upon that snapshot back in time
You picked a stone up, put your name there next to mine
And I spent the next decade trying to make that feeling last
We’re just like everyone who holds on to the past
I couldn’t wait to leave the things that made me me
I couldn’t wait to be with you
And I spent the next decade trying to make that feeling last
We’re just like everyone who holds on to the past
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2. |
Before My Eyes
03:30
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Sun is up and I’m going out
Got a moment here that is just for me
Headphones on but I want to shout
Got a feeling of pure biology
Senses sharp, I can feel the world
In the tiny patterns of my skin
So much more than another girl
I just know that something’s about to begin
Nerves like a roadmap, so complex and vast
You’re the last destination, I’m here at the start
You’re in my veins, through the pains of the past
In the tiny channels of my heart
Right before my eyes
You’re a beautiful surprise
Right before my eyes
You took a while to recognize
Night comes down and you’re in my arms
Got a taste like the sweetest sugar cane
Love goes off like a fire alarm
In the sparkling circuits of my brain
All your anatomy’s got to me here
I can feel you shudder underneath
My fingertips and your lips to my ear
I am holding on by the skin of my teeth
Right before my eyes
You’re a beautiful surprise
Right before my eyes
An anaerobic exercise
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3. |
Hold On Tight
03:44
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I had that dream against last night
We were running through a subway in our youth
I was left and you were right
Then I woke up and I knew this was the truth
In the basements we would sway
Growing underneath the capital like seeds
As if it’s the only way
With our minds’ eyes open wide just like our deeds
Hold on tight, those nights with your friends
‘cause you will see where it will end
You can fight, alright with your friends
‘cause they’ll still be there in the end
I have some words here on my phone
It was a song we wrote for them when we were young
About the life we all got shown
And every atom that I tasted on my tongue
Now we’re corners of the globe
So far apart but somehow we can still connect
Step back into the wardrobe
Into a world so sharp we all still recollect
We clung together in those lonely lonely times
Another college town, the plane takes off, the wheels touch down
The train will roll, the car will stall, we want to feel and drink it all
The four of us will always be, just like a show on my TV
And even though it’s cancelled now, the reruns play on anyhow
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4. |
Coming Undone
03:43
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They were
The greatest of days, yeah
And I don’t like to compare
But it felt like warfare
We were
The greatest of rivals
We swore on the bible
It meant our survival
Somehow we made the through
And reached the place we’re running to
We came around at twenty-two
Just blinking out the blindness
I tell you now that, as for me,
It wouldn’t be a blasphemy
To say I’m not a devotee
Of any acts of kindness
Those were the days
Of heartbreak and fun
The language it slays
Taking down everyone
The habit it stays
Of a weaponised tongue
There’s so many ways
Of coming undone
You were
So iconoclastic
A friend but sarcastic
Just destroying the plastic
They were
Desirable objects
We didn’t know what next
Superior and complex
And now the world is ours
We left behind the ivory towers
And faced up to the superpowers
Of taking down the foolish
But all the innocent
The crossfire and the good intent
Don’t understand the way it’s meant
To say we are the coolest
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5. |
Carbon
04:11
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I met you at the same time that I found myself
I guess I got confused
I didn’t feel much younger back then than I do right now
There’s so much left to prove
All my optimism, naive and romantic heart
I was in a big old rush
Couldn’t wait to make mistakes in such a frantic start
It never came to much
We’re all made of the same thing
So why’s it so hard?
I’m breathing out now at the same time that you’re breathing in
Our elements exchange
You end right at the point I start to think that we begin
Guess nothing really changed
‘Cause we’re just carbon and some atoms that could float away
In a universe so cold
And we will end but they will live to fight another day
Their story isn’t told
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6. |
Indian Summer
03:26
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I guess you ought to know
That this ain’t my first rodeo
And if I’ve done the maths correct
I take one look at you
And say you’re in the same boat too
Well, that’s what I’d expect
It’s not sophisticated
So let’s not be coy
And the rules they haven’t changed one little bit
You’re just a girl and I’m a boy
It still feels the same
With each time that I play this game
You are my late late comer
It still feels the same
My heart don’t seem to ever change
This is our indian summer
And I want you to know
It’s better late than never
And it feels just as though
I am changing like the weather
And if it seems as if I’ll
Settle down and let it drift
Because it wasn’t my plan A
I don’t want life to choose
The things I get, I just want you
Won’t have it any other way
I’m not the first, second or third
In line I don’t reckon you heard
You’re mine, you’re mine in any case
It makes no odds to me
And even if you want to be
Can’t turn the clock back, I just see your face
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I can’t remember where I was the day I heard that sound
I only know it felt as if the world stopped turning round
The television froze me in my tracks, I came apart
Like up till then I’d never really felt with all my heart
The music set on fire the things that life had only warmed
And where I’d been a child, I was alive, I was transformed
The day the record changed
The planets rearranged
The soundtrack of my life in every frame
When I was young my life was just a map without a road
But when I heard that song it felt as if I’d cracked the code
The key to my existence from that moment to today
Now every time I listen I know there’s no other way
A beautiful compulsion an emotional affair
The sound has been a friend to me when no one else was there
At first I asked myself what is it?
Sort of magic? Kind of physics?
Something that can stop the traffic
Nothing more than mathematics
Human beings pressing keys
Fulfil my every single need
More than the sum of all it’s parts
These are the masters of the arts
The wonder of it all!
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8. |
Eighty Six
03:25
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Another saturday, a party at your place
I broke those promises, some dishes and my face
I fell in love and then I fell right through glass
I kissed the ground like I’m Pope John Paul the Last
I want some conversation, can’t find anyone
Who wants to talk of anything but what I’ve done
They turn away like I’m a stranger in the park
I get the feeling that I’ve overstepped the mark
Don’t 86 me
I’m gonna fix up
Don’t 86 me
There’s been a mix up
Don’t 86 me
I’ll run the farthest
Don’t 86 me
I’ll try my hardest
So now I’m outside and I’m looking for my friends
I lost my glasses, in the grass this contact lens
I can’t remember, where’s my wallet and my keys
Just lend me cab fare, I am down here on my knees
But you don’t know me so you show me to the door
Yeah, I don’t think this was the house I came before
Don’t recognise you but I’d like to come inside
And maybe sleep it off, forget I lost my pride
It’s not a metaphor, a moral that showcases
I’ve seen the bathroom floor of many different places
I have no off switch, I just got this thing somehow
Like a floodgate, and it’s too late to close now
Don’t 86 me
Yeah, we’ve all done it
The only thing is
I I still want it
You tell me grow up
Well that’s your two cents
Because I did and
It made no difference
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9. |
Joystick
03:14
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This is how we play, in our youth
But it won’t go away, that’s the truth
‘cause this is timeless, it’s online it’s everywhere
And you will find it’s not the crime they all declare
When we get older
There’s no controller
It’s obvious I yearn, for simpler times
Before they made me burn, and blew my mind
I had my joystick, wasn’t love sick to my soul
And would I trade the choice I made, well I don’t know
Of course I understand that youth with lose its bloom
(and yeah I know) Can’t stay a child forever, sitting in my room
(We have to grow) But I was satisfied cross legged on the floor
(With all my friends) We made amends just playing on the 64
(and of course) I’ve no remorse about the life I led since then
But I would go back in a heartbeat just to play like that again
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10. |
Nights
04:19
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Will it forever be to be this way?
It always has to come
As sure as night will follow day
And even after all the fun
It seems there’s something wrong with me
Like a thorn stuck in my mind
I have to push, can’t let it be
Cannot leave it all behind
Why can’t you stay out of my nights?
I walked away, I pressed eject
It was the only thing to do
But I don’t choose, I can’t elect
To stop thinking of you
I’m getting by, the days are bright
But as the sun begins to set
I am possessed until the light
Erases the cassette
Remember this is what I wanted
I wonder why I feel so haunted
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11. |
Barcelona Rooftops
03:22
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I dodged a bullet
And kept on running
Open my eyes now
And let some sun in
When I came round, I found myself so far away
My sweet paloma
On the rooftop
It’s like a coma
It’s where my heart stops
And I was in shock
I was still reeling
Like something unlocked
I had this feeling
I can’t describe, I don’t know why I chose this place
And all it cost
And all I lost
That’s fine
It will increase
My peace of mind
It’s so much warmer
It’s so much calmer
Not like the former
There’s no more drama
In Barcelona
As the sunsets
I am a loner
It’s where I forget
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12. |
DNS
04:52
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I was at the movies
The night your heart gave out
Yeah, I was out
I wonder if you missed me
As you were lying there
And wish me near?
You always were the big man
I wish I’d known
You could have shown
Can you now forgive me
For what I couldn’t see?
That kid’s not me
I’m that guy
that they all talk to when they’re down
And you were mine
But I will walk through anyhow
I was twice as angry
Yeah, at you
And myself too
Of course Ive always missed you
Not every day
But enough I’d say
And in my dreams we still meet
It’s rarer now
I wish I knew how
To control the whole thing
My mind, my health
But I’m a man myself
I watch the children in the sand
And wonder what you’d think
Of the things I’ve made?
The amount I drink
I wonder what they’d call you
Oh, you’d love them
They’d love you too
I’m that guy
that they all talk to when they’re down
And I lost mine
But I will walk through anyhow
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Matthew Searles UK
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